Winter break sucks.  But I'm going to try to make it fun for myself.  Here's my list:

1) Finish Christmas gift shopping
2) Wrap presents! :)
3) Read one of the many books on my "need to read" list
4) Knit (thanks, R)
5) Play video games?
6) Shop for myself
7) Clean/Organize my room (this is not fun, why did I put this on here?)
8) Learn to cook (somewhat)
9) Go to NYC!! (this should be #1)

That's all I can think of right now.

In other news...my bf is amazing! :) 
 

This past weekend was a-m-a-z-i-n-g! I spent it with my boo! :)  But now it's finals week. :( Yuck! And I have to go home! But it's only 3 weeks...then I go to NYC! 

I love my life. Sometimes I don't realize how lucky I am, but when I do, I'm sooo thankful. 

"I wouldn't be sad." --->something I'll never forget!  :) 

He's been such a jerk.  And I made him work for it.  He's still working for it.  He really surprised me. Because now he's acting like a bf should.  

I love him too much.  

"God, I want to be with you."

Let's hope it's true... 

was a great day.  My grandmother was better (I helped her eat, so she had more energy).  Today she is having surgery.  I hope she's going to be okay.  I had a good time with her last night.  It was good to see her smile and laugh.

Last night (I didn't get back until 6:30) Aaron took me to the Boonesborough park and we went swinging!! I love to swing!! We hadn't done that since we were first dating, and it was so much fun.  Even though it was cold, it felt wonderful.  He even opened up to me...and it was so sweet.  I love him.  And he said he would try harder.  I feel so lucky.  

*Update!  As I was writing this, my dad called and said the surgery went great!  I'm going to see her tonight! 



 

My grandmother is very sick.  I wish I could take care of her all the time, but I can't.  I have to go to school and work.  I feel like this is the beginning of the end.  She may not be around much longer.  I love her.  I will miss her.  But I don't want her to be in pain.  I hope she gets better soon.  

This weekend I'll have the house to myself.  It won't be the same without her.  I'm not used to being alone in that house.  My dog Blue will definitely be staying with me.  She can keep me company.  

A week ago he broke up with me.  I felt numb after that.  Then he called.  I wonder what made him call.  He said, "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me." I like this better though.  We started over.  If I see him one day, I don't see him the next.  We never see each other two days in a row.  I know it may sound wierd, but we've got a good system going on.  We both need time to ourselves, and I think it works out perfectly.  He said, "I know I'm hard to handle sometimes, but please be patient with me.  One day, it will be different."  Doesn't he know how impatient I am?  It's one of my biggest faults.  Maybe it's a good thing for me.  I learn patience, and he learns...what does he learn?  Maybe he's learning more about me.   

I'm getting a lot done today.  I've almost finished my Case Study, and I translated a recipe into Spanish.  I like getting my homework done at a reasonable time. (But I'm usually a procrastinator...)

Today is my last day to observe at Model.  I'm gonna miss those middle schoolers.  They are sooo funny to watch.  It reminds me of when I was that awkward age...

I'm addicted to Perez Hilton, the Queen of Media.  I read his (her?) blogs endlessly, clicking and clicking, never wanting to stop. Although, I don't like how he makes fun of Jennifer Aniston.  She's probably my most favorite actress next to Meryl Streep.  He calls her "Maniston," because apparently she looks like a man.  Whatever! She's gorgeous, and a fellow Aquarius! ....

Ahem...anyway...do names describe people?  One of my favorite movies, Elizabethtown, has this girl named Claire in it and she believes that they do.  She says that Phil's are dangerous, Ellen's are flippant, and Mitch's are fun.  I wonder what a "Liz" is?     

 I love exercising.  It makes me feel wonderful.  It's strange because I used to dread going to the gym.  But now I can't wait.  The stress just disappears whenever I go.  

Everything's getting better.  I love my life and all the people in it.

My ex-best friend is getting married.  I hope she's happy.

He said, "I just want to slow things down and do this right." :)

I feel like writing a short story or reading a great book.

Yesterday was a wonderful/sad day.  I went hiking with Rhianna at the Pinnacles, and it was beautiful.  I really needed to get away from everything, and nature is a perfect place to do that.  On the other hand, Aaron and I talked and decided we needed to go on a break.  I'm smothering him.  I honestly don't mean to, it's just that I'm addicted to him.  I don't know if it makes any sense, but I am.  I love the way he makes me feel, and I want to be with him as much as possible.  But he needs his alone time, just as I do.  What really scares me is that he doesn't know if he wants to be with me in the long run.  I really love him.  I fell way too hard for him.  I guess now all I have to do is sit back and wait.  I admit that we got too serious too fast.  We just need to date and have fun.  I'm not going to worry about it anymore.  If it doesn't work out, oh well.  There will be someone else.  

What if I don't want someone else?  

 was awful.  My bf basically told me I'm a loser.  "You need more friends."  I used to have friends.  Then they changed. I changed.  My best friend turned out to be someone I didn't know.  I had to transfer schools.  My other best friend got married, and is moving to South Carolina.  I'm not from Richmond, but I've made friends here.  Thank God for Carole.  I'm glad she knows him better than me, and she can see what I can't.  I hope we make it.  I'm getting too attached to the family...